over and out

she's up
birthed
she'll live for a few short weeks
upon termination she'll be boxed

earlier there were internal dilemmas
the whining
is the child worth the effort?
should i pursue this?
do i want her like this?

day of birth satisfaction
the quiet feeling of accomplishment
a hint of pride

all to be lost tomorrow
or not
the celebration is fraught
the presentation of self
the self appears bold and confident
there is a reason the ancients utilized masks

she works into it
preparations similar to battle or summer camp


end the night on the early bus
welcome 4:30 am
follow beer with coffee
to a plane
to a land
party clothes on
glassy eyes engaged
spirit high/low
discombobulated in the best of hazy "do with me what you will world" kind of way.

no sleep for the animals

i don't know

to return

few thoughts
drowning self in music
a rare desire

procrastinate

avoidance
it's a craft
not to feel bad
to accept as it is
as the present

to not do as should
but to act on desire

head is muffled
a bit quiet
unexpected
a hesitant pleasantry
silence
rarity to embrace

transitions

ready to get out complete with russian name

tourist photos--nearing the end of the russian collection

individualizing your car

pt II


pt II

lada love

big plans
a creature like this
a creature of another sort
hundreds and thousands of kilometers to cover
linking two old superpowers

this & that from r land

space age remnents

for the love of russia

installment 02

post russia love

installment 01